~This nonfiction narrative originally
appeared in The New Orleans Review
(1980).
Editor’s note: This piece contains offensive language.
The Reign of the Gypsies
My stepfather slept with pistols. I have a memory from shortly after my mother
married him and he moved the three of us into the blue house on the hill. I am sitting cross-legged on their bed. Marvin reaches into the drawer of the night
table. This is Joe, he says, hefting out a stubby .38. He opens his coat. And Old
Tom. A squarish .45 is strapped to
a stiff piece of leather under his arm.
The point of the display was that I was never to touch these things,
which I became accustomed to as furnishings of their room, Joe on the night
table with the medicine bottles and mystery books and Old Tom under Marvin’s
pillow.
No one ever
explained to me why Marvin armed himself.
I doubt anyone could have. I came
to understand on my own that he gambled and that his successful amusement
company supplied local honkytonks with illegal slot machines as well as with
nickelodeons and pinball. Our east Mississippi
town accepted him as a benign sort of rich outlaw. Except for the benign part, he so encouraged
this impression that I eventually decided his guns were props. Now I know it wasn’t that simple. No more simple than childhood, which I once
thought was overrated as being a time of wonder.
Marvin feared gypsies. I didn’t know that gypsies had a history in
our town and that a gypsy queen is buried there, and I didn’t know if gypsies
were even real or if they were like the fantasy people in some of my
books. Yet one afternoon after I came
home from elementary school, he almost convinced me a gang of them had laid
siege to the house. I remember charging
at windows with my baseball bat and a favorite kitchen knife. Our excitable dogs roiled about me. Marvin joined in from his window chair at the
kitchen table and shouted encouragement and warnings as I kicked paths through
the dogs.
The game ended
when he locked me indoors and took the boxers to guard outside. Through the picture window in the playroom I
watched him standing at the top of the driveway overlooking an acre of
yard. The boxers have run off. Breeze ruffles his silk pajamas and thick, perfectly
white hair. He ignores a neighbor’s
called greeting, cocks my BB gun, and sets himself to stare down a pine tree.
There were
many pines in that yard, and woods lay beyond.
He must have held the vigil until my mother came home from her work at
his office. By the time she coaxed him
inside, I was either picking at the house dogs or peering through snow on the
new television set.