~This
story was originally published in Witness: Love in America and in
Thema: The Road to the Villa (1999).
Americans like San Miguel, so he would take
her there. He'd already shown her many things she liked: the Diego Rivera
murals in the Palacio Nacional, the floating gardens of Xochimilco, the house
of Frida Kahlo. She liked the house of Frida Kahlo very much. She'd never seen
a house painted that color before. It was cobalt, a little darker than the
color of her computer screen.
But some
things she did not like: the beggars at the stoplights, the filthy-faced Indian
children pressing boxes of Chiclets against the car windows, the garbage that
littered the streets. She was nervous about any ice in her drinks. He took her
to the new shopping mall called Perisur, but she didn't recognize any of the
stores. She couldn't find her size in any of the shoes.
Her name was Greta. He liked to call her Greta
Garbo because she was tall and she had honey-blonde hair and she had long thin
hands and she plucked her eyebrows into the shape of boomerangs. He liked to
think she was Swedish, especially when they had their clothes off. In fact she
was Irish Catholic on both sides, from Seattle, Washington (where the apples
were gigantic, almost square and waxy red). They'd met in Boston, at the end of
their first semester in an MBA program; now it was summertime.
His name
was Gerardo. He spoke English very well because his parents had sent him to
Denver, Colorado for a year when he was in high school. He had stayed with a
family that was very much like Greta's, he imagined. He'd liked them, despite
their German Shepherd, a bitch that liked to pounce out from behind the
La-Z-Boy and bite him on the behind. Not very hard, but it unnerved him.
They
left for San Miguel at four thirty in the afternoon in his father's car, a
midnight blue four-door Cutlass. It would take them three hours to San Miguel,
Gerardo calculated, three and a half if the traffic were heavy before they got
out of Mexico City. They would arrive at the Villa Nevada Hotel in time for
dinner. That's where they would be meeting Paco, he'd told his parents. (Paco
Romero Vega, his friend from business school who was married now and had a baby
on the way and they would all be staying at Paco's uncle's hacienda just
outside of San Miguel. Oh, his mother said—she knew Paco's mother from the Opus
Dei— did the uncle have horses? He imagined so. A telephone? No. What did
Greta's parents think of this? They'll think it's fine if you think it's fine.)
Actually,
Paco Romero Vega would be spending his summer in Los Angeles working for the
branch office of a Mexican commercial bank.
Greta
hadn't even heard of San Miguel. She'd wanted to drive to Acapulco. This was
before the toll road was opened: They would have been driving through the
mountains of Guerrero at night. Gerardo told her this, but she insisted.
(What's five or six hours? I want to walk on the beach with you. Well, what's
the problem? I can drive too you know.)
Later,
years later, he would understand that in the United States it was possible to
drive all night, a woman alone, on an interstate highway. They were well-repaired,
they were well-lit, they had ample and level shoulders. There were plenty of
places to stop for gasoline, a quick trip to a clean restroom, a telephone, a
cup of hot coffee and a cheeseburger. And the police looked like they could
have been one of his classmates at that high school in Denver. At the time, he
had seen this, outside of Denver, outside of Boston. But he had not understood
this.
Greta
didn't seem to understand anything. (Are you sure you want to take this
seriously, his mother said. Memo Hernández and Debbie have separated, you know.
She went back to Philadelphia, or Phoenix, or wherever it is she's from. And
don't forget Santiago Zedillo and that woman he met in Chicago. I hear she's
taken the children with her and gone to live somewhere in Nebraska. Think of
that, his mother said, fingering her Virgin of Guadalupe medal. Three little
children named Zedillo and they're living in Nebraska.)
But
Greta agreed to the Villa Nevada in San Miguel. Gerardo had been saving his
money for this for months. When you visit Mexico, he'd said, I'm going to take
you to the Villa Nevada. We're going to stay in a suite, at dinner we'll have
French champagne, we'll sit in red lacquered chairs and there will be a fire in
the fireplace and a guitarist playing Rodrigo. And in the morning we can walk
the cobblestone streets looking for street fairs, art galleries.
"Greta
Garbo," he said, to himself.
"Gerry,"
she said and laid her beautiful blonde head on his shoulder, "Why's the
traffic so slow?"
"Maybe
there was an accident. Maybe there was a demonstration."
"Looks
like both." Greta slipped her penny-loafers off and put her feet up on the
dashboard. Her toes were long and porcelain and thin, like her fingers. The
nails were beautifully formed, and pink although unpainted.
They
were stuck at a stoplight behind a long line of buses and cars. A man selling
packages of peanuts strung through a wire hanger had walked by them twice
already. The bus idling next to them was packed with people clinging to the
overhead straps. Their faces looked dark, exhausted.
"Oh!"
Greta cried, something slapped against her window. It was a tiny brown palm: a
little boy held up a box of Chiclets. His nose was shiny with snot.
It was
five o'clock. They'd been in the car for half an hour and they had not covered
more than a few city blocks. The sky was a dull dog fur yellow. The light
changed, again and at last they pulled onto the Periferico, the city's
ring-shaped expressway that would take them to the highway north. Traffic on
the Periferico was heavy but it was moving. In less than ten minutes they were
north of the exit to Barranca del Muerto. They passed billboards for cigarettes
and mattresses and pantyhose, then the Viaducto, Mixcoac, San Antonio. The
Periferico ran over a hill and from the crest there was a view of the massive
skeleton of the unfinished Hotel de México and its revolving rooftop
restaurant. Beyond that was a shroud of smog. They couldn't see them, but he
knew they were there: the snow-capped peaks of Iztaccíhuatl and Popocatépetl.
Foreigners used to compare the Valley of Mexico to the mountain valleys of
Switzerland; consumptives used to come here from the United States for the air.
Gerardo smirked, to himself. He wouldn't tell her that.
"You
know what I like," Greta said. "I like to just get in the car and
drive."
He
didn't look at her; he was concentrating on the traffic. She'd said this many
times before. She liked to brag about the time she was in her last semester at
Oberlin and she drove all the way to Chicago by herself in the middle of the
night, just for the hell of it. She parked in the parking lot of a big downtown
hotel and walked over to the Oak Street Beach and watched the sun come up over
the lake.
"Just
for the hell of it," she said.
Greta
had her feet up on the dashboard again. She pressed her toes against the glass.
This was something his mother, his sisters, his sisters-in-law would never do.
No Mexican woman would put her bare feet up against the windshield. It would
not even occur to them.
They
were nearing the Lomas-Las Palmas exit and the Fuente de Petroleos B a
fountain with a Teutonic-looking nude and triumphant bare-chested oil workers
carved in black stone - but again the traffic had come to a full stop. The cars
were idling as far ahead, all the way into the maw of the tunnel under the
Fuente de Petroleos. This was when Gerardo remembered: it was a Friday quincena,
a Friday payday. That's what was wrong with the traffic. It was nearly five
thirty.
"Oh
my God!" Greta giggled. "Will you look at that." Two cars ahead
a man was walking briskly down the row, holding up a newspaper. DOS ACUSADOS
DE ASESINATO, it blared in huge block black letters. "Dos acusados,
asesinato, dos cientos pesos," the man droned as he passed
Gerardo's window.
"What
about him?"
"Gerry!"
Greta laughed. "We're on the expressway."
He
laughed back, though he didn't think it was particularly funny. The traffic
inched forward and then stopped again. He was beginning to feel a cramp in his
neck. His mouth was dry. It seemed they weren't going to get anywhere. But no,
he told himself: it was going to be like a honeymoon, the Villa Nevada, the
champagne, the music, and then the great white gauzy canopied bed with Greta
Garbo. And in the morning, he would wake with her in his arms, close and warm
in the still coolness of the room, birds singing, a stone fountain burbling in
the patio outside their window.
The
traffic inched forward and stopped, again. He pointed out the Fuente de
Petroleos; the Comermex building; the Hotel Presidente. Only a few years
later there would also be a Nikko Hotel, and a bit beyond, one of the world's
largest MacDonald's. There would be a new overpass for Las Palmas, and the
Comermex building would be renamed, after a new financial group.
"I'm
hungry," Greta said.
"You
want some Chiclets?" A woman with two skinny braids was at his window
holding up a carton filled with different color boxes of chewing gum. She had a
baby slung across her back in a filthy rebozo. The baby was so tightly
wrapped, no head, no feet, no hands, it looked like a lump.
"Is
it safe?"
"Sure
it is." He tossed Greta the box.
She
turned it over in her hand. "I hate mint."
"Oh,"
he said. "I'm sorry."
"It's
OK. I didn't really want any anyway."
"You
sure?"
"Yeah,
yeah, it's OK. You go ahead and have them."
"No,
I'll get you the flavor you want, they have violet, cinnamon, tutti fr -"
"No
really, Gerry." She was smiling now, Greta Garbo. "Really, I didn't
want any." She ruffled his hair and kissed him on the cheek.
He took
back the box and shook out the Chiclets, bright and white like a handful of
teeth. He began to chew.
"Gross!"
"Whaa,"
he said.
"That
is really disgusting."
"Tha
i re-eh dih-guhing," he said, chewing happily. He was kidding; she was
laughing. She loved him; Greta Garbo was in love with him. He was pretty sure.
The
traffic was moving again. Soon they were on the outskirts of Satellite City, an
American-style suburb, with its bowling alleys and pizza parlors and
supermarkets with vast parking lots. Gerardo had an uncle who lived here. He
was a dentist. His wife was Lebanese. Sometime next week, Gerardo thought, he
would take Greta to meet them, and his aunt would serve them Turkish coffee in
tiny cups that they would balance on their knees. They passed a Shakey's, a
Chuck-E-Cheez, a Denny's. A plastic grocery bag skittled across the asphalt.
(Americans are so materialistic, his father said. You Gerardito, you think
you're so smart, tell us, why do the Americans lack religion?) They passed a
Volkswagen dealership, a travel agency. And then it occurred to Gerardo to say:
"Citibank's
corporate finance division is always looking for people. I could ask Martín to
get you an interview before we graduate. I asked Ricardo the other day about
the casas de bolsa, and they'd take someone with an MBA. You could do
Dollar interest rate analysis until you learn Spanish."
"Dollar
interest rate analysis," Greta said, as if she were trying out the words
to see how they sounded. She still had her feet up on the dashboard, and the
windshield was smudged now with the little ovals of her toeprints. "I
hadn't thought of that."
"All
the external debt is tied to the Dollar," he said.
"That
might be all right." She rested her head on his shoulder again. Her hair
was straight and silky and it smelled of flowers.
And then
they were on the highway driving north past the slums of Lechería. Hovels of
cinderblock and tarpaper and corrugated iron were packed along dirt streets
that ran crooked as cow paths up and across the hills to the horizon. Greta sat
up and she looked out her window and was silent. By the side of the highway
there were the occasional chickens rooting around the packed earth, between the
blades and tufts of new grass and weeds, or a tethered goat or burro. Where
there were walls these were whitewashed for slogans: VOTA PRI, Carlos
Salinas de Gortari, Vota así "X", PRI. There were people walking,
there were dogs, starved-looking, their tails down between their legs. The
traffic had begun to thin and now there were more trucks, of all kinds. The sky
looked bruised.
"We
took too long to get out of the city," Gerardo said. The gum in his mouth
had lost its flavor. He shifted in his seat and rubbed his neck. "And it's
going to rain."
"So?"
Greta wasn't worried in the least. "I mean, it's only six fifteen, we'll
make it to the Villa Nevada with plenty of time to change for dinner. They
should be serving until at least eleven, don't you think?"
"Yes."
He chewed his gum with small quick champs. He gripped the steering wheel
tightly as he accelerated to pass a truck. Its bed was stacked with empty
chicken cages; as the Cutlass sped by, a few stray fluffs of feather wafted
out.
Later,
years later, it would occur to him that Greta had grown up in a city where it
rained, often heavily, throughout the year. He would go to Seattle for a
computer industry convention and he would stay in a hotel with a view of Puget
Sound to the west, the Space Needle and its revolving restaurant to the east.
Every day it would rain, the inky clouds low over the water, and every day the
cars and buses and trucks would head north and east and south on the highways
with their many wide lanes, their tall bright lamps, their ample and level
shoulders. And when the convention had concluded and he had bought his wife a
necklace and some apple candy and his five children the latest computer games,
he would take a taxi to the airport and it would be raining a fine misty rain,
although the sun was shining on the other side of the sky, and suddenly he
would think of Greta, though he had not thought of her in a long time, and in
fact, he had not thought of her the entire week that he was there.
They
were driving through raw countryside. This was one of the few months when
things looked green; here and there they passed a field of planted agave or
corn. They passed a burro grazing at the shoulder, a boy wearing huaraches,
driving a herd of small black goats. A village; a chapel; a little pile of
stones topped by a cross. The sky behind them looked ragged, egg-blue in
places, then swaths of angry-looking yellow. The sky overhead was the color of
ashes.
The
windshield was soon splattered with purply yellow bug guts. And then, later
than he expected, it began to rain, lightly, large drops plashing the
windshield. Soon he had to switch on the wipers; when he did they smeared back
and forth, skweetch skweetch.
"Ugh,"
Greta said. "How are
you supposed to see anything."
Gerardo
pushed the lever for a spray of water with detergent, but it was empty. A fat
green insect made a livid tick against the glass. He rolled down his
window just a crack and flicked out his chewing gum. It stuck to the rim of the
window frame, although he did not see this.
"What
are you doing?"
He
brought the window back up, pinning the wad of gum. "What?"
"You
just threw out your gum."
"So."
"You
shouldn't do that!" He was still smiling at her when she said that.
"Come on," she said, "you shouldn't litter, that's why there's
so much garbage everywhere, everyone just throws their junk wherever they want.
It's disgusting."
"Greta."
He swerved left to pass a decrepit Toyota. "We're in the country. Who's
going to step on it?"
"That's
not the point." She had her arms crossed over her chest. "I could
have given you a Kleenex to wrap it in and you could have put it in the
ashtray."
He did
not know what to say to this. It was ridiculous. He switched the radio on and
found a rock-and-roll station. The tune that was playing sounded like something
from the Fifties, a man's voice singing everyday it's a gettin' closer
to a clippety-clop beat and chimes or maybe xylophone. The rain was coming down
hard now, pelting the car loudly but the beat and the chimes and the rapid skweetch
skweetch of the wipers lulled him as he sped along straight with the
straightness of the highway.
"I
can't believe it." Greta's mood had changed already. "You know who
that is?"
Gerardo
shook his head.
"Buddy
Holly! I haven't heard Buddy Holly in like five hundred years!"
"Who?"
She
looked at him carefully. "Don't kid me, Gerry. You really don't know who
Buddy Holly was?"
"No."
"What
are you?" Greta arched her eyebrows. "Mexican?"
He
forced a grin; at least she thought that was funny. He could have asked
her who was Juan Gabriel, who was Yuri, who was Agustín Lara, and she wouldn't
have had the slightest idea. They passed a sign for Querétaro.
"What's
in Querétaro?" she asked brightly.
He did
not answer right away; he was distracted by the thought of how she might answer
if he asked her, for example, What's in Philadelphia?
"It's
a colonial city."
"Like
San Miguel?"
"Well,
yes, but a lot bigger. It's a big city."
"Maybe
we should go there," she said, but she saw him stiffen. "I mean
someday. Someday we could go there together."
"Yes,"
he said. "We could." He reached out and he put his arm around her
shoulder and she leaned into him, gently. It felt good to hold her there like
that, so light and soft and easily breathing. That she existed, Greta Garbo,
that she was here now with him: it amazed him.
"Con
su cansión Everee-deh," the d.j. said, "Boo-dee Ho-yee. Suene
chino, no?" And
then something came on by the Beatles. But the music had begun to fade already;
he moved the dial to a classical station, an orchestra of strings and a choir
singing in a minor key, a requiem by Mozart perhaps. Driving was steady and
easy now, despite the rain. They passed several villages, an aqueduct, and then
they came to the outskirts of the great industrial sprawl of Querétaro. Night
was beginning to fall and to the west, in the direction of San Miguel, the
rainclouds were underlit with a ribbon of pink and scarlet. A flock of birds
crossed low over the highway, their forms sharp and dark against the sky.
He would
always live in Mexico City, he knew that, and this would be difficult for her.
But she might work for a year or two, in a place like Citibank, or McKinsey, or
Proctor and Gamble. He would build a house in the south of the city near his
parents, with a garden big enough for children and a good large dog. He would
like to have three children, a girl and two boys. He would have to take them to
Seattle to see her family, but then on the way home they could visit Disneyland
and Knott's Berry Farm and Sea World. When they were older, he would take them
to see Chichén Itzá and Uxmal and Palenque. He would take the boys to climb to
the black ash cone of Popocatépetl, and they could buy mountain bikes and ride
all over the Ajusco. The little girl would look just like Greta.
She had
fallen asleep and her lips were slightly parted. Her hand was resting on his
thigh, that long pale Greta Garbo hand. A Pemex oil tanker was flashing its
highbeams behind him, but before he had a chance to move into the left lane the
tanker started to pass him on the right. That's when he ran over a dog carcass.
"Uh,
eeh," he said, gritting his teeth. He could feel it under the wheels.
"What?"
She opened her eyes.
"I
had to run over a dog." The Pemex tanker pulled in front of them with a
fart of soot.
"You
ran over a dog?" She sat up.
"No,
no, it was already dead, someone else hit it. But I couldn't move, that truck
was passing on my right."
The
Pemex tanker was meters ahead already, although Gerardo was speeding himself.
"Pee-yoo,"
Greta said, waving her hand in front of her face. She turned on the fan.
"That is really stinky."
"Don't
do that." He switched the fan off. "That will only make it worse,
pull it into the car with us."
He
turned off the highway onto the road heading west to San Miguel, a narrow
two-lane with no central divider and a shoulder no wider than his hand. The
radio station had faded, and now when he fiddled for another one, he only found
static. They passed another dog carcass, this one without a head. A calf had
been hit in the other lane, and its belly was bloated, its legs stiff as rods.
Even in the dim of the twilight and the rain the landscape was harsh: mud, a
few stunted trees, agave, stones. They passed a cinderblock school, a clutch of
hovels, a gas station that was closed. The trucks had their headlights on now
and whenever one roared past, the Cutlass shook in the gust of its wake as the
backwash hammered the windshield like nails. They would be on this road for at
least an hour, probably more.
"We
have plenty of gas, don't we?" For the first time, Greta sounded worried.
"Of
course." He wanted to put his arm around her again but he did not dare.
The rain was pounding down in sheets. When a truck's headlights came towards
him he had to somehow avert his eyes, yet concentrate on keeping his car within
the narrow lane. The road bed was mounded high in places; in others it was low,
easing off into a sea of mud. But before long he could not tell what was off
the road, a steep drop? A field? A shack, or an animal? Everything was black as
pitch, but for a few widely scattered beads of light in the distance and the
headlights of the oncoming cars and trucks.
After a
while he began to get that cramp in his neck again. He moved his head from side
to side, trying to relax. Soon they would be unpacking in their suite at the
Villa Nevada. And then, he imagined, they would be seated in the dining room, opening
their immense leather menus, sipping fluted glasses of champagne. He'd packed a
new suit and a good Italian tie. She'd brought that little strawberry-red suit
that made her legs look so long, and the silver butterfly bracelet he'd given
her for her birthday. He sped up to pass a small Volkswagen. And as his did, he
thought of her in her strawberry-red suit and her high heels and her silver
butterfly bracelet, his Greta, his Goddess, and he thought, thank God - thank
God - his parents believed that story about staying at Paco Romero Vega's
uncle's hacienda.
"Go
slow, Gerry." Greta was gripping the dashboard. They were passing through
a depression where fog was beginning to form in patches. It was impossible to
tell what was on either side of the asphalt; there was only the blanket of
blackness and ahead, their headlights disappearing into curtains of water.
"Slow!" Her voice was rising, "Slow down!"
"I
am going slow."
"No,
no, there's something in the road!" She grabbed his arm. He could barely
see it: what looked like a white plastic bag and a melon or a gourd. Another
truck with its highbeams on barreled towards them, and in its wake the white
thing in the road ahead fluttered like a wounded bird. The sound of the rain
striking the car was deafening. Then he could see -- barely -- through the
rain: it was a grocery bag that had spilled open and scattered, food, melons,
bread, a smashed jar.
"It's
just garbage," he said, beginning to accelerate again to plow through it.
"No!"
Her nails dug into his arm. "Stop!" And he slammed on the brakes just
in time to avoid running over the body that lay face down in the center of the
road. A boy with black hair, his poncho was soaked, dark brown. The rain came
down through the two beams of the headlights silver-straight, like darts.
Everything around them was blackness.
Gerardo
swerved around to the left and pressed down on the accelerator.
"What
are you doing?"
He
looked at her as if she were mad. "Do you see any place to stop?"
"You
have to stop. Oh my God, you have to stop."
"Can't
you see there's no shoulder? If I pull over, we could go down a ravine, or into
the mud, our car could flip over. I can't see what's there, and if I stop in
the road someone will hit us."
The only
noise was the rain, the windshield wipers, the tires hissing along the asphalt.
A car passed them, a truck passed them; Gerardo kept driving. They cut through
fog, clouds of it, then wisps hanging over the road like ghosts. In a little
while they came to a village, another closed gas station, a cinderblock chapel
crowned with a string of electric bulbs.
"We should get off here,"
Greta said. "We should tell the police."
"We
can't do that."
She
snorted. "Why not?"
"Because
they'll say we hit him."
"Oh,
come on."
"Yes,
they'll say we did it and they'll take our car and lock us up until my father
can come and give them a hell of a lot more money than we've got with us."
"No."
"Yes,
that's how it is. We're guilty until proven innocent." He wanted to look
at her for emphasis, but he was afraid to turn his head: the road was so slick,
no narrow. And they were almost there, they were beginning to see signs for San
Miguel.
"But,"
she blurted, "what if he was still alive?"
"He
wasn't. He was lying face down. He's probably been run over by three or four different
trucks by now." Gerardo thought: That could be true.
Greta
crossed her arms tightly across her chest. The lights of San Miguel appeared in
the distance, a brown-orange glow from behind the curve of the hills. They
passed an illuminated billboard: HOTEL VILLA NEVADA LO MEJOR DE MEXICO.
Greta was staring straight ahead, eyes shocked wide, as though she could still
see the boy lying on the road in their headlights. Gerardo said nothing; he had
said what there was to say. He had explained the obvious.
The
Cutlass began rumbling over cobblestones.
"I
wasn't brought up like that." Greta's voice was steely. "I wasn't
brought up to just leave someone lying in the road."
"He
was dead." Gerardo pulled out to the left to pass a truck stacked high
with hay. "It's terrible, but can't you see? Nobody else was
stopping." He was going to say more, he was going to touch her knee and
say "sweetheart," but she had moved away from him, pressing herself
against the door.
Later,
all these many years later, he would understand that he could not have done or
said anything different. He would consider himself a sinner, because sin was
original, woven like a red thread into the fabric of being. Yet he was a good
husband and a good father to his five children, which is to say: he provided,
he protected. He would still carry in his wallet the little laminated card with
the prayer to the Virgin of Guadalupe his mother gave him when he went away to
Denver for that year of highschool. He would touch it every time he opened his wallet to pull
out a credit card, say, or his business card, or a couple of tens to pay the
taxi to the airport. Simple words in Spanish, how they had comforted in that
wilderness of snow and suburb, surrounded always with the flat honking, barking
sounds of American English. And when his mother died, not long after the birth
of his fifth child, he would begin to say the rosary. He would contemplate the
mysteries. So many mysteries. What had become of Greta? In fact her name was
Greta Anne McClellan— or was it MacLeland? He would not be able to remember;
her name would be like a small key forever lost. And he would think all this
when the convention had concluded and he was in the taxi to the Seattle airport
and it was raining a fine misty rain, although the sun was shining on the other
side of the sky. She would flash— briefly— into his mind, tall and honey-blonde
and long-limbed, strange and unknowable to him now as a screen star.
At last,
they pulled up to the curb in front of the Villa Nevada. The Villa Nevada was a
restored colonial mansion, its entrance hall softly lit with sconces and
candles. From its tall roof the stone drain spouts burbled out their last few
drips of rainwater onto the cobblestones. There was only the softest drizzle
now, nearly a mist.
Gerardo
stepped out of the car. It felt good to stretch, to simply stand. The air
smelled of green and petals, pale and sweet, like something slightly unripe. He
could hear, faintly, the guitarist in the dining room strumming flamenco:
intricate, delicate, wrought with passion. It would be all right after all, he
thought, it would be as he had planned. They would check in, they would dress
for dinner and they would go into the dining room. He would reach across the
table (white linen cloth, a candle) and he would touch her hand. Their hands
would lace together and he would tell her that he loved her.
Greta
had gotten out of the car and she was standing on the curb by the driver's
window— which she had rolled down— and she was picking at something in the
frame with her fingernail. As the porter reached into the trunk to unload their
luggage, Gerardo began to walk towards her— because he was going to put his arm
around her shoulder, or maybe it was because he was going to encircle her waist
and kiss her on the back of her honey-blonde head. Or maybe he was simply going
to take her long pale hand in his to walk with her and their porter and their
luggage into the soft golden light of the Villa Nevada. But she jerked back.
And she pressed into his palm his wad of gum, this hard cold little thing, and
she hissed: "This is yours."
*****
THE STORY BEHIND THE STORY
I wrote this story so long ago that now,
when I reread it, it seems as if someone else wrote it. But one thing stands
out for me: that flash-forward nearing the end of the story. I think this may
have been the first time I tried that stunt; in subsequent works, both fiction
and nonfiction, I played more and more with time lines. For example, in The Last Prince of the Mexican Empire,
my novel set in Mexico in the 1860s, a flash-forward shows some young Austrian officers
in Mexico, suddenly elderly, at a reunion in a beer hall in Europe, as World
War I breaks out. In my latest book, Metaphysical
Odyssey into the Mexican Revolution, the narrative winds around time like a
Nautilus. At one point there’s a riff into a scene that might have taken place
by a poolside in Hollywood with famous actresses, had the leader of that revolution
not been murdered. It’s wiggy fun to makes pretzels out of time lines, but it’s
in service of a serious point: that with a godlike knowledge of the future—even
if it comes only in a flash— we can find a deeper compassion.
*****
ABOUT
C.M. MAYO
C.M.
Mayo is the author of Sky Over El Nido (University
of Georgia Press, 1995), which won the Flannery O’Connor Award for Short
Fiction. Her stories have been widely published in literary journals, among
them, Gargoyle, Kenyon Review, Paris
Review, and Potomac Review, as
well as in anthologies including Richard Peabody’s Grace & Gravity: Fiction by Washington Women (Paycock Press,
2004). Her other works include the novel The
Last Prince of the Mexican Empire (Unbridled Books, 2009), named a Library Journal best Book of 2009, and
the nonfiction books Metaphysical Odyssey
into the Mexican Revolution: Francisco I. Madero and His Secret Book, Spiritist
Manual (Dancing Chiva, 2014) which won the National Indie Excellence Award
for History, and Miraculous Air: Journey
of a Thousand Miles through Baja California (University of Utah Press,
2002). A noted translator, she is also the editor of a collection of 24 Mexican
writers, many in translation for the first time, Mexico: A Traveler’s Literary Companion (Whereabouts Press, 2006). For
more information: www.cmmayo.com
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