~This
story was originally published in CALYX, A Journal of Art and Literature by
Women (2006), under the name Mandy Farrington.
~Selected by Assistant Editor Kenneth A. Fleming
My first morning on the job, I’m melting. The cafeteria
floats in my tears. White-aproned reflections swim across the stainless
surfaces—counters, sinks, cabinets, doors. Vegetables I’m fixing to slice sweat
odors that seem a bit personal.
The woman at the station next to mine—Frances—must be
seven feet tall and four hundred pounds. A hair net clutches her skull. If it
had leg openings, I could wear it as a tutu. She speaks with determination
about killing her daughter. “I’ll slit her throat,” she says. “Wash her blood
down that drain.” She tilts her massive head toward the hole beneath my heel.
“Norbert can put out her carcass with the rest of the pigses.”
Norbert, with his mane of white hair, looks like God
dealing judgment. His pink eyes flicker at Frances, then refocus on the meat
slicer.
“Frances, you’ll do no such thing. All teenagers talk
back.” That lady’s name is Elsie, at the station opposite mine. Her voice pipes
up and down a scale.
“I’m the one brought her into this world. I’ma be the one
takes her out.” Frances peels boiled eggs with a single motion per shell. She’d
peel her daughter’s limbs the same way. Where I come from, a crime is toilet
papering somebody’s trees. Maybe I am overreacting. Sweat makes it hard to grip
the knife. When I melt, they can rinse me down the drain as well.
“Shhh,” Elsie hisses and lowers her eyes. Her skin is the
color of weak chocolate milk, peppered with dark freckles. She smiled when I
was introduced.
“Pick up the pace,” I hear behind me. It’s Kitty, the
manager and only white person here besides me. Perhaps she heard Frances and
will call the police or something. Steadying my hand, I chop carrots.
I have a scholarship. This job is for fun money.
Ridiculous not only because the job is plain deadly, but also because I don’t
have any friends here to have fun with. They all went to different schools.
Breathe through the mouth so you won’t cry. You have made
a serious mistake.